First Love…never let it go

Today we celebrated our 11th wedding anniversary. It was a simple one, set lunch at Windmill. Our newborn came along too. Then back home to our other 5 children.

2 consecutive nights, hubby wasn’t around for a few hours. On the first night, I have to mind my 15mo and my 1mo all by myself. I almost go insane because the 15mo wants my undivided attention and the 1mo is being disturbed by her whiny sister and wants my boobs throughout the time. At one point, I left my newborn to cry till he almost lost his voice while I attend to my 15mo. My older children are asleep at that time because it is a school night. The 2nd night, I have no choice but to ask my eldest to help me out with her 15mo sister. Poor her, she had to sleep late that day. I was so tempted to stop her from school immediately and start homeschool so that she can help me with the babies. Hubby told me to be patience and wait till MIL comes home from her vacation and see whether she can help out. Meanwhile, I requested my mom’s help; my 15mo baby sleeps with her when hubby has to work at night.

Through the years, we have tried to be financially free that is free from debt. Unfortunately, we are not able to due to our small income. This is part of the reason, we are still contemplating to buy an MPV even though we are a family of 8 now. I don’t mind driving 2 cars than having to go into debt again to buy an MPV.

We are now looking for buyer to buy one of our apartments so that we can settle all our housing loans and a personal loan. Hopefully we can have some extra then we might consider buying a used MPV or check out the fixed annuity rates to make more money.

My mom started to complaint to my sister that she is tired and lack of sleep from taking care of my children. I can’t comprehend what she meant by lack of sleep. My 2 younger ones did not give her any “sleep” problem. She doze off easily with her and sleeps through the night unlike when she is with us. My older 3 goes to bed by 9pm. If she said she is tired, that is understandable.

I’m not going to dwell into this. In a week time, it will be my youngest fullmoon. I’ll bring everyone back home even though my tummy still hurts. Like what they said, “Mo anak banyak, pandeh pandeh lar jaga sendiri.”

Hubby is so tense right now. He is taking his nap! In about 2 hours time he is heading to church for worship leading practice and he still has not get his song list ready. Preaching is way easier for him than worship leading. We are praying for God’s anointing. When God anoints the worship service, everything will fall into place. The songs and the music will flow well with or without the Mogami Cables.

This personalised Christmas card is really personal. It means having your own face or your family members printed as the christmas cards photo. This is good especially for friends and relatives that live in the land far away and hardly get to see you and your family often.

Hmmm…why am I talking about Christmas in April! Well, I guess I can’t wait for my youngest to grow and start a new phase in life next year ~ homeschooling.

My 2nd regret of opting for c-sec is the FOOD! I can’t eat most of my favorite food for 100 days at least. I forgotten to take this into consideration. Now all I can eat is fish (only gelama, kurau and ikan haruan, the rest, it is either too costly or “itchy” fish) and pork. No chicken, no duck, no beef, no lamb, no eggs and definitely no seafood. Which means, I can’t eat curry, sambal, masak lemak etc and my no 1. favorite, Sambal Belacan.

As of today, I can hardly swallow anymore fish. I just put this up in my FB status “Fish is friend, NOT food.

With Baby Yosef joining our family, we need another mattress for our room. Previously, my 3yo, 1yo and myself cramp in one king size mattress and hubby sleeps on a single mattress beside us. Now with another baby, we need a bigger mattress. Either we get a custom mattress that can fit my 3 babies and I or get another single mattress for my 1yo. If only my 3yo would want to sleep with his brother and sisters then no mattress issue. He is too attached to me.

The first regret of opting for c-sec instead of induce (normal birth) is I can’t see my baby fresh from the “oven” look and hear his first cry. Each time after hubby bathe him and handed him to me with him all wrapped up and still a lil bit wet, I get a glimpse of how he looks like when he just came out from my womb. (this is making me teary!)

If only the LA works, I won’t have this regret. I was on GA when the surgeon cut me up. Only woke up 2 hours later, still drowsy, asking the nurse where is my baby and whether he/she is a boy or girl.

The second thing on my mind after giving birth is “what’s my weight now?” “how many kilos have I shed after giving birth?” “how many more kilos to shed to get my pre-pregnancy weight?” “Do I need apidextra to burn the extra fat?”

For this last pregnancy I gained 7kg. After giving birth, 3 kg gone and I am left with 4kg to shed. After 20 days of fully breastfeeding and sleepless nights, I lose another 1kg. Still 3 more kilos to go but no worries. I’m sure I can get my pre-pregnancy weight in less than 3 months and maybe loose more when I start to mind all my 6 children on my own soon!

Last Sunday was GBM’s 18th Anniversary. On the same night they had pot bless to celebrate the occasion. I’m still in confinement and can’t do much cooking. But I want hubby to bring something to church. I asked my mom whether she has the Purple Cane Tea to cook the Herbal Eggs. Yes! She has a packet. Then I got my dad to buy a tray of eggs.

Just boiled 30 eggs, cracked them a lil bit. Place the herbal tea bags in the rice cooker, add water, salt, sugar and the eggs. Then let it simmer for 3 hours. There you go. A quick, easy and yummy dish for pot bless.

I was just thinking just now. Will I ever sew again? Not the type of sewing to patch my family’s clothing. What I meant is, sewing bags again, pencil case, handphone case etc. Before I give birth to my 6th child, I did think of sewing curtains. Then the family’s maid left us and since then I have no time to sew. Maybe one day when my youngest is older and more independent, I’ll start sewing again because sewing does de-stress me. I can give you discount window curtains if you be my first customer.

I have to bear this feeling for 2 more weeks. I really feel handicap when I can’t drive. I am stuck at home. And I have to depend on others to get around.

I want to go shopping ni! Itu “others” don’t like to go shopping.

Received a call from my mom 2 nights ago telling me to bring the car jumper because my dad’s new Proton Saga’s battery has gone flat. I was like “Huh? New car’s battery go flat so fast one arh?” It seems that one of my children did not close the door tightly and the light in the car was on for more than 18 hours!

Thank God hubby was around at that time and we went over to my parent’s place to jump start my dad’s car. Our old junk; the Toyota Corolla KE70 which often unable to start due to cold weather helped a new car to start. So proud of you, my faithful old junk!

While we are at this, any know odyssey pc925 battery is for what machinery?

Would I change my decision to have a caesarean birth? I would not. Yes, it may be painful for the first week. The most painful part is when I need to get up from a lying position. With painkiller, the pain is reduced. But it is not as painful as going through induction to force open the OS. Induction maybe just a few hours but that few hours of excruciating pain made me feel like I will die any moment.

If I could turn back time, I would wait for my baby to come out naturally. Wait till he is really to say “Hello” to this world. Wait till 40 weeks. Baby came out healthy at 2.6kg. If only the doctor did not threaten us with “baby not growing”, “baby might die in the womb” and “low amniotic fluid will make baby suffocate”, I would have given birth to him naturally with minimal labor pain and no caesarean scar.

I wonder whether this is part of God’s plan for me to go through c-sec birth or I have intervened with God’s plan.

Look who is my confinement “lady”.

Oh btw, I just realised that I have not blog about the birth of my 6th child. I just started ranting about the pain after the c-sec birth. Anyway, only when I can sit longer, I’ll blog about it. As for now, I do not feel comfortable sitting too long; pain lar.

If any of you needs to go for c-sec, do consider doing it at the government hospital. Surgery is done by experienced surgeon or the specialist. No more medical officers doing it like those days. They have the latest equipment. I think better than the private hospital. And best of all, I was only charged RM100 for the caesarean birth! I don’t think their Payment processing made any mistake coz other mothers told me the same too. Isn’t it the cheapest c-sec in the world?

Day 5 and I am still in pain. Oh well, I asked for it. To have my last baby via c-section. I took painkiller when I really cannot stand the pain. I heard that painkiller slower down the healing process. I hope and pray and I can get up with no pain soon. If you asked me whether I regretted my choice. I’ll will say no. Induction is way too painful for me. Even though it is for a few hours, the pain is excruciating.

Author: Joseph Sandoval

I am teaching my kindergarten class the Sign Language Alphabet, as well as some basic signs, like: boy, girl, mom, dad, teacher, friend, bathroom, please, thank you, finished, helped, sorry, listen, sit down, stand up, open, close, stop, and colors. They are really catching on so quickly, and I think they are enjoying it. I see them on the playground telling one another to “stop,” while signing it as well. I like it because while I am in the middle of a whole group lesson, I don’t have to stop talking to tell a student to sit down, or listen; I can just sign it to the student. Last night, I was flipping through the channels on our Thousand Oaks Satellite TV and came across an old, black and white Helen Keller movie. I was so intrigued by it, and her story, I couldn’t help but stay up late and watch the whole thing. I really think sign language is so amazing, and I’d love to become a fluent sign language speaker some day.

Today I went for another check up at the hospital. Everything is well except that baby’s tummy is small comparable to his head. According to the doctor, this is an indication that baby is not growing. His weight is still at 2.2kg. The doctor asked whether I want to be admitted again so that they can monitor the baby every 4 hourly but I decline. The doctor asked me to closely monitor baby’s movement in my tummy and to come again for check up this coming Monday. She hopes that baby will come out soon since he is going to be 37 weeks in a few days time. She said that if the baby does not grow in the womb, it is better for the baby to be out of the womb so that we can give him the nutrition he needs to grow.

What should I do? By Monday, baby will be more than 37 weeks already. Should I opt for c-sec to get him out earlier?