First Love…never let it go

He bought a slack. It needs to be altered; shorten. Since I can sew now. I offered to do it for him. So, I happily took his old pants and used the same measurement. The next day, I happily inform him that I have shorten his slack. Instead of thanking me, he said in a not no nice tone, “You know my measurement meh?” I told him I followed his old pants. “You want me to sweep the floor with my pants arh? I still need to fold that pants you know.” How would I know, he has a few pants and I don’t keep track which he folds and which he does not. I wish he would use different approach so that I won’t feel that hurt like, “Thanks Dear BUT if you follow that pants, it is still be long bla bla bla bla.”

Ok ok lar…I am being very sensitive here.

A few months back we sent our LCD monitor for repair. After 3 months we were told that they couldn’t find the parts to repair it and asked us to take back our LCD monitor. But the LCD monitor that the computer shop is returning to us is not ours! Looks like they have given our LCD monitor to someone else and they do not have any idea into whose possession it is now. Like this also can and my dear hubby did not make any fuss about it! If I were there, sure the boss will get a piece of my mind. Now we are thinking of buying another LCD monitor. Still looking for a good buy at Cyber Monday.

I had a bad dream last night. I dreamed that I was forced to marry the best friend of my close friend due to some family problem; something like that coz I can’t remember that part clearly but both of us were unwillingly married.

In the dream, my husband brought me to see the love of my life who just opened a cafe somewhere at Jonker Street. He knew I love him very much and was hoping he can help in anyway to end the arranged marriage.

At the cafe, he was busy washing at one of his Elkay sinks when I called him out for a chat. We walked in each other embrace towards the beach. I beg him to help me and release me from the marriage but he said “No!” With sadness in his eyes, he told me that he loves me very much too but he just can’t. I did not beg further coz I know he is a man of principle. No matter how much he loves me, he does not want to be the cause of me divorcing because divorcing is a sin in God’s eyes.

I woke up crying my heart out! Thank God it was only a dream. And I am happily married to the love of my life.

Because someone thinks that I have this bad intention to ruin her business. Oh God! She thinks I am evil.

Since I am no longer working I am very careful when spending hubby’s income which is very little for a single income earner with 4 kids. So when I wasted his money, I felt very bad.

As always, I let out my frustration in my blog with no bad intention of ruining other people business.

Well, I guess I am not wise enough in writing my thoughts.

Now I lost a friend and made an enemy. That is just great!

This year is such a holiday blessing for us. You will know the reason soon. hehe. In July we went to Genting Highland, just last week we were in Port Dickson for a church camp and this coming October if God willing we will going to Cameron Highland to visit a missionary family. It may not be a Branson vacation. To me, as long as we leave our hometown as a family, it is a holiday.

My car is a year older than me! If I live in Singapore, I am sure I will be no longer allowed to drive my old junk on the road even though it is in good driving condition. Thanks to many poor Malaysian Bumis, I can save money and drive my old junk. But, recently the auto insurance for cars that is more than 10 years old has increased tremendously. You can no longer purchase a 3rd party policy; it must be a 1st party policy.

I have a digital camera but it is a point and shoot digital camera. It has been with me for a few years already. I am thinking to upgrade to a better digital camera; a DSLR. You see, I got peer pressure. A lot of Mommmy bloggers already own a DSLR so I do not want to be left behind. I have yet to read any digital camera reviews because I don’t have the cash to buy one. DSLR is way over my budget. I am still not prepared to spend over 2k for a DSLR.

I told hubby that I wanted to earn some income online. I wanted to sell something like other SAHM. But I do not know what I am capable off. I do not know my skill; special skill. I maybe into sewing now but I am not sure whether the product I sewn is good enough to sell in the market. Hubby told me to find my passion first then focus on that passion. If it is sewing, don’t go think about selling wall stickers, clothing, car accessories or koi pond supplies. Aiyo! What is my passion leh???

The date of the mission trip to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah has been confirmed. It will be a 4 days trip and we are so happy that we managed to get one of our ex-church members to help with our business. If we can have him for long term then hubby can plan to go for more mission trips which is his passion, his calling.

Yet again, I am stuck here with my own mission to raise Godly children. I thought marrying a soon-to-be missionary, I will be able to go for mission trip more often but I am so wrong. My last mission trip was to Sarawak a few months before we got engaged. After that, I’m stuck at home.

Anyhow, I am trying to help in anyway that I can besides praying for the team. I am hoping to be able to sell more Mr Plattie (Soft Toy) so that I can contribute to the mission fund. Unfortunately, I only managed to sell 2 Platties.

I did post my intention in FB but most of them “Like” my status and commented that I have a good heart. Don’t just “Like” and compliment me, support my good intention by buying some Platties for your kids lar.

Any idea when is Halloween? Since we do not celebrate it, I never know the date until some mommy blogger wrote it in their blog about their halloween celebration and show off their cute infant halloween costumes. If my children wants Halloween costume, I will just sew for them. Let them dress us as Mr Platypus or Mr Penguin coz I doubt they wouldn’t want to wear anything scary.

Hubby hardly fall sick but when he does, he really stay sick for a few days! He caught the bug from us. We are all recovering now. It is more difficult for hubby to recover when the weather is cold. It has been raining for a few days. When he is down, his body needs heat. He needs hot weather, he needs to eat a lot to heat up his body and he needs to drink hot and heaty drinks like ginger tea.

Having your own business does not allow you to take medical leave unless you have someone to replace you. Unfortunately his part-time staff is not able to work this whole week. So, hubby still have to go to work when he is sick. How I wish I can take over for him but I have my 4 children to mind.

Please pray with me that God will heal him ASAP.

This year, if God willing we will leave our hometown 3 times to go a weekend vacation. This will be a record breaker. Since I am married to my husband, we never get to leave our hometown more that twice a year due to his busyness with church and work.

Our family weekend vacation to Genting Highland is confirmed. We will be up there end of this month. This weekend vacation is sponsored by my dear advertisers. I have been saving up my USD for this trip for quite a while.

I was just telling hubby that after his mission trip to Sabah this September, we should make a weekend trip to Cameron Highland to visit a missionary family there. We have been telling them that we will visit since they left Kupang and started serving in Cameron Highland. This year is the best time coz come next year, we will be homebound.

So I suggested we go in October so that I can have time to accumulate my online income for this trip. At first I thought this weekend vacation will be cheaper than Genting coz we do not have to pay for accommodation coz we will be staying in their house but hubby said otherwise. We need to spend double that our Genting trip. Oh! The other half is to give them as love offering. A VERY expensive accommodation! I don’t think I will have enough for the other half and that I have to leave to hubby.

Last night, hubby suggested that we sign up for church camp which will be held this August. We will have the church camp at Port Dickson. Yippie! Another family weekend vacation for us.

Halleluyah! We have finally paid up our last 1k beginning of this month. It was not easy you know. 1k may seems little to some of you but it took us 3 months to have that extra 1k in our business account. I am so glad that part of my hard earned online income is also being used to pay up the business loan. I jokingly tell hubby that half of the business is mine!

Do you know that not all wives are willing to share their income with their husband? I know a few. One of them is my ex-colleague. Her salary is hers and her hubby didn’t even know how much she has in her savings account! This is really not healthy in a marriage. I don’t understand how can a wife live her everyday life with the husband thinking that he might leave me one day for another woman. So, she must save some for her “in case” future. Where is the trust? Where is the transparency? Will the marriage survive with this kind of attitude?

After running an internet cafe for almost 4 years now, we have changed our office furniture a few times especially the cheaper chairs. I always believe that we must pay for quality but sometimes, our budget does not allow it. At that point in time, we were really in need to replace the office chair but we did not have much cash. So we settled for a cheap office chair. In less than half a year, the chair broke. Hmph! We really must set aside a small budget to replace our office furniture; must buy good quality ones this time.

Yesterday, I treated everyone at home KFC coz I got RM50 from my brother for helping to send and fetch his girls to and from kindy. Ya, ya, ya, I should use that money to pump petrol eh. Nevermind, petrol is in my budget already. This RM50 is extra so, must bless others with it.

Hubby was at work as usual and I still buy 2 pieces for him coz he loves KFC. Unfortunately he came home way too late to enjoy the KFC and now, I am eating it for breakfast. Got to look for best weight loss pills after this coz fried chicken is fattening!

I heard testimonies about prenatal vitamins can make you and your baby fat. Come to think of it, it is true you know. When I was pregnant with my first child, I took prenatal vitamins until I am due to deliver. Due to it, my weight increased 17kg! With my 2nd child, I took until 20 weeks. Weight increased more than 10kg but it was hard to shed that extra weight. I was lingering at 52kg only after 6 months delivery. Come to No.3 & No.4, I did not take any prenatal pills. My pregnancy weight increased less than 10kg and after a month, I am back to my pre-pregnancy weight. Both baby are strong and healthy. So, you don’t really have to take the prenatal vitamins if you watch your diet during pregnancy. But I do take my normal supplements though.

Aiya! The insurance agent just called again. Told her to come during school holiday but she never did. She wanted to come today but I told her that I am very busy. True what….busy crapping away now. Since she called so many times, I have to give face and let her come see me on Sunday at 3pm. Hmmm…I hope something come up on that particular hour and I can escape her again. If not, I just have to nod, nod and nod when she explains and convince me to check out her life insurance rates. I think I should just tell her that I have no money to buy more insurance. Full stop. End of bugging me to buy insurance from her.

For the past 2 weeks hubby was able to cycle to work, thanks to one of hubby’s part-time staffs who has been working for almost every night. Due to cycling, he has a flatter tummy now. As he was looking at the sensa weight loss product online, he was very happy that he does not need to swallow any of them yet. His next mission is to jog to work because he wants a more complete body workout.

My hubby is one who does not really bother whether you are pretty or have lots of acne on your face but no all men are like him. To him and also most of us, if one is pretty but have bad characters and attitude, their pretty looks does not matter anymore.

When I was still studying in uni, one of my roommates has a very vain boyfriend. He will read all kind of reviews pertaining beauty. I am sure he read exposed acne treatment reviews. He even plucks his own eyebrows! How many men that you know do that? His girlfriend finds it hard keeping up to his standard and before they graduated they broke off and this roommate of mine went out with a not so good looking guy. I think she is phobia dating good looking guys.

My hormone is changing again and now it is for the worst. I have so many breakouts but I couldn’t be bothered to get any adult acne treatments. Reason being, I am no longer young, I am a mother of 4 and hubby never has any problem with the acne on my face. You know, he fell in love with me months before I get the worst breakouts in my life and he did not leave me. To him, inner beauty is more important than outward. *ahem*